procrastinating studying

bleh, east asian societies. BLEH to YOU...

anyway. i made dinner tonight, whee! garlic shrimp + veggies + rice = damn good dinner. yayayayayay.

so uh, why am i here? i feel pretty rambly at the moment and a lot of excess energy is going through me before i can focus on studying. this is literally word vomit. sorry. yuck. new phrase? word diarrhea sounds just as bad...

anyway! i had dinner, then ate irene's banana bread, and then had ice cream. faaaaatty mc faaatterson.

irene makes really good banana bread :]

can't speak french - girls aloud. amazing song. mostly because it makes me wanna get up and dance and sing along with the french version (it's my current ringtone!!)

je parle pas francais alors laisse la funky musique nous faire danser, oh oh ohhhh.

i really really miss french. i was so good at it, it was really a subject i actually enjoyed, that made sense to me. you know? it was like french & me clicked. if french was a person...

i miss my best friend daniel le. i wish we could talk more often, but our schedules seem so off these days... he works when i'm free, i'm sleeping or in class when he's free, etc.

HSM3 premiere at the usc galen center two nights ago. effin' amazing. we snuck in :] sooo amazing, i couldn't even tell you. i'm in love with the soundtrack and zac efron and zac efron's biceps. i saw the movie already, hehe :] if only matt had biceps like zefron, hah.

i'm a big believer in the 80/20 theory that daniel and maria told me about. (it's from tyler perry's "why did i get married" movie.) it's so true. nathan started debating it last night and how you never know if there's someone better out there than the one you have have unless you go out there and see for yourself. of course, i automatically start thinking about my own relationship.

matt and i have been together for two years now, and while i don't know what the future with him holds, two years is a substantial amount of time of my teen years. i'm happy with him, he's happy with me, and it's nothing short of a great relationship. (using other words sounds stereotypical :[ )

a lot of people in my situation--girls/guys with a stable relationship--start getting bored and the whole "the grass is greener on the other side of the fence" crap starts permeating their thoughts. is it sad that i haven't thought about that since the first few months that matt and i dated? (heh, i used to flirt with a lot of other guys in the beginning to protect myself from getting hurt...) is it sad that in other people's eyes, i've "settled"?

in the end, only what i think matters, and i think... that i'm really really happy with matt. not just content, but truly happy. and i don't want to risk my 80% in search of a 100% that doesn't exist. i haven't settled, i just know that what i have is something special that nothing else can compare to. suck it. haha.

blahhhh. that didn't come out right, i don't think anything i ever write comes out right. when will i ever get rid of this damn writer's block that's been with my blogging writer side since freakin' sophomore year?! i miss you, janet the blogger. come back okay? you used to be fairly eloquent.

i like snickerdoodle cookies. yum yum cinnamon.

okay. i think this is enough of ramblyness. time to get more work on my easc150 midterm study guide, sighhh.

88, love, janetanne