home - michael buble

ahhhhh! i'm sorry i've been so mia, readers. or, reader. because as of right now i think ian's the only one that reads. HI IAN!

anyway :] i've been busy for good reason! it was my last week at home, so i was livin' it up by cruisin' through san jose, eating good pho & crepes, hanging out with the boyf & the fam, and packing like a madwoman! :] / :[ pretty bittersweet. sigh.

it was weird, moving this year. i felt more prepared for the school year... yet at the same time very much dreading going back. last year, i didn't cry once during the transition period. when i said bye to the boyf, no tears! when my parents left me, no tears! nothing even close to tears. but this year, merely bring up the fact that i was leaving again & i'd tear up. wtf, right? sigh. i don't know. i'm much more homesick now.

it's sunday night and i miss home so much. i've been here for 36 hours and it feels like forever... :[ i miss my mom and dad so much. my mom's like my best friend. she takes care of me and loves me no matter what. and i even miss my dad. yeah, my dad. the guy i didn't talk to for almost the entire summer. we made up recently and i just really miss him now, i guess there's something comforting about having your parents take care of you. bleh, i'm tearing up as i write this.

and i miss matt. i miss miss miss miss miss him like crazy. we tried to webcam last night and i cried every 5 minutes. at one point we pretended to hold hands and i just started crying because we couldn't. BLEEEHHHHH FULL TEARAGE.

but anyway. on a more positive note... i'm looking forward to this year. i feel like i have a better handle on everything (besides the homesickness, anyway... and cooking... aiyahhhh.) i know what i need to do. and i'mma get it donnneeee. [;

i can't even believe it's my sophomore year of college already. where does time go? sigh... :/ school starts tomorrow. and i know i'm ready, but i'm still not quite ready for what's to come. does that even make sense? eh. who cares if it does? i'll end here. i think i might try to cook me some cheesy pasta (recipe courtesy of twin... i miss her too :/) so i have some baon this week, haha. (btw, baon = tagalog for... umm... brownbagging lunches. kinda. random thought within these parentheses--i hate it when you try to translate words from other languages and it just doesn't come out the same way.)

siiiiighh. school, here i comeee :] even if i just wanna go home :/

88 (hehe, i think i'm actually going to go through with using 88 for my goodbyes), love, janetanne